Frustration is not despair or failure

After years of researching, writing, editing and finally completing the first draft of a novel that is intended to be the start of a series the ‘no-mans land’ of agents and submissions is a strange and unfamiliar place.  I have been submitting to literary agents for four months now.  Over sixty separate agencies submitted to, following their guidelines, honing the covering letter and the synopsis, adding the extras – brief bio, or back cover blurb.  Whatever is desired.

And then nothing, the vacuum is almost perfect with only some bothering to reply so say ‘not for us’.  A couple of scraps of encouragement.  The majority don’t do anything and I have to score them off after 4, 6, 8 or 12 weeks as ‘not interested’ though I have no idea what they thought.  So far the combined lack of interest is close to 60% including nearly 25% which are outright rejections.

Why anyone chooses to write and to seek publication is a mystery.  There is zero encouragement, support or succour.  I have been asked why don’t I try self-publishing.  Internet types encourage this in the belief that the internet is everything (it isn’t!).  I was avoiding the ‘fan-fiction’ or ‘vanity publishing’ labels.  I have always wanted to be a genuine published writer.  Work and life have always made this difficult but never diminished the ambition.

I have established a niche.  A small and seemingly overlooked niche in historical fiction and its proving to be a lonely place despite the potential for storytelling in a violent time of many upheavals that is crucial to understanding the history and culture of Britain.

The patience and resignation continue.  There is no choice in a tunnel, you make your own light.

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